Here I am again...

Well here I am again. It's the last few weeks of my pregnancy and I am growing more impatient by the day! I thought about blogging this whole pregnancy, I've thought about coming back to this time and time again. But something stopped me. Now here I am on Dec 27th (again) writing about being 37 weeks pregnant (again). Only this time it is with our son.

I am so excited to meet this little guy. I just want to hold him and kiss him! I know that it is all in YHVH's timing and I will gladly wait for his perfect timing, but I'm still not a very patient person so this hasn't gotten any easier. However, I'm committed to trying to enjoy this and not just rush it along. Last tiem I only got to write for a few days before the baby came. So we shall see what happens with this one....

In the mean time let me share something that's been getting me through. This is one of my all time favorite birth videos. Hope you enjoy :o)

My Birth Story :o)

              I was only 38 weeks along. I had completely given up on having the baby early and settled on the fact that God willing come February (I was looking far ahead) I would be holding a baby. So on New Year’s Eve when the contractions started I had no idea what was about to happen.  I had been really sick for hours. I spent  the whole day in bed or in the bathroom. My poor husband had to deal with lots of a mess. But he’s so good about taking care of me when I’m sick. I really thought I had eaten something bad. Then at around 10pm it happened. I started having contractions. I just ignored them the best I could while I went on watching movies in bed. The New Year came in and hubby came and gave me a kiss, then I went to bed. I woke up at around 3am in serious pain. I tried to go back to sleep but the pain was really getting to me. I managed to get a little sleep in between contractions, and around 9am I was shaking my husband letting him know something was seriously going on. I asked him to help me get in the tub, at which point he insisted on timing my contractions. I had given up on timing them so I told him I didn’t want to know how far apart they were.  So he timed them and I sat in the tub trying not to get my hopes up.  After about an hour with nothing getting better, I called the doctor and insisted they let me come in.

                I tied on my headcovering before leaving for the hospital and I felt a certain strength come about me. It was the first time I would be covering outside of my home. I didn’t realize how much it would be a blessing. We left for the hospital and at this point I couldn’t walk or talk through my contractions. When we arrived at the hospital it seemed like no one believed that I was actually going to have my baby, but I just left it up to YHVH.

                Throughout my whole labor and delivery I prayed. I prayed for my labor to progress, to be able to relax through my contractions, for the health of my baby, and anything else that came up. I felt so unbelievably close to YHVH. It was like He was there with me holding my hand through it all. When I thought I couldn’t go on I was able to call on His strength. Only in His strength was I able to labor naturally up until I reached 10cm and it was time to push. I got an epidural at the last possible minute but my doctor turned it off before it could take full effect. About an hour later our second daughter was born.

               This birth was so different from my first. I felt so close to YHVH, I felt so much peace and comfort from my heavenly Father. I felt so incredibly loved. I truly believe that is the power of following Him. When we really seek YHVH, He is faithful to show us love, and mercy. 

"But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." -Isaiah 40:31

THE WAIT IS OVER!!!

We welcomed our second daughter into the world on January 1, 2011! It was earlier than we expected and such a blessing! We are so thankful for her! (No, she wasn't the first baby of the new year lol)

Bailey Estella 

 "The LORD bless thee, and keep thee: The LORD make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee: The LORD lift up his countenance upon thee, and give thee peace." Numbers 6:24-26

Me? Selfish?

I realized something today... By wanting this baby to come early I'm being selfish. My beloved has a picture in his head of how our home coming will be. He has a vision of packing up his whole family and driving home from the hospital. To our home. Not our parents, not a friends but our very own home. The place where we are making our memories. The only problem is we don't have a car right now. But YHVH opened a door for us to get a car in mid January if all goes well.

I've been praying for this baby to come as soon as possible, completely ignoring the fact that my love has a dream of how this will go. To me being a good wife means putting myself last. Up until now I've believed this in theory and haven't really put it to much practice. But for once I realize its not all about me. Am I uncomfortable? Yes. But would having the baby in a few more weeks make my husband's dream come true? Yes!

I could look at this as a dilemma, but I'm looking at it as a chance to learn to sacrifice my comfort for those I love. I have an amazing husband and a few more weeks of pregnancy is nothing compared to the sacrifices he makes for me.

So my prayer has changed from Lord please hurry to Lord please strengthen me so I can hold out, please allow my beloved's dream to come true.

Of course I know I don't know YHVH's plan and maybe it won't all work out. All I can do is pray for what would most please my love.

"3 Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves. 4 Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others."  -Philippians 2:3-4

In HIS Hands

" The horse is prepared against the day of battle: but safety is of the Lord." -Proverbs 21:31

I came across this verse randomly. Someone else actually mentioned it as a verse that gave them peace in their decision. But then I realized it fits me now. All I can do is get ready and know that the rest is up to YHVH.


Its such a blessing to have a heavenly Father that can see the big picture. Though I feel I'm ready, He knows all the details I don't. So I can rest assured that if she hasn't come, then its not time yet.


Though waiting isn't easy I can find my comfort in YHVH! So while I'm packing hospital bags I'm going to be praying. Not just for a safe delivery but also for my daughters. That they will be friends as well as siblings and that they will grow up loving YHVH and wanting to serve HIM! 

Family Fun

Its been a long day. Lots of low contractions, hopefully they're doing something. It was nice to see family and not be so wrapped up in the pregnancy. Even though that's all anyone wants to talk about.

Dealing with the belly and Amina was a little easier today despite my discomfort. It feels like no matter what position I get in it hurts. But I was able to still lift her and feed her, maybe even better than I have been previously. We all played the Michael Jackson game for Wii. It was so much fun. I won twice! It was funny and everyone was shocked that the pregnant lady won. Of course grandma Mary is convinced that all that dancing is going to make the baby come tonight. Ha we'll see but some how I doubt it. Although I have been having some contractions since heading home. I'm just going to go to bed and go to church tomorrow as planned. Unless the Lord sees fit to have things go differently.

"I wait for the Lord, my soul doth wait, and in his word do I hope. 6 My soul waiteth for the Lord more than they that watch for the morning: I say, more than they that watch for the morning. " -Psalm 130:5-6

(written 12/25/10) 

My First Lesson

So my first "lesson" comes from a verse that I don't think I've ever payed much attention to.

" I was cast upon thee from the womb: thou art my God from my mother's belly." -Psalm 22:10

Have I spent enough time in prayer for this little one? Have I sang psalms or hymns to her? Have I invested my time NOW on instilling the things of the Lord?

Sadly I must say no. With an active 2 year old running around and being uncomfortable, my focus has been in the wrong place when it has come to this pregnancy. But its not too late to fix it. If I focus on the miracle God is performing in me and use this time to create precious moments between the three of us (God, the baby, and me), I can start what will be a life long process of training her in the way she should go. I guess this is great practice for having one on one time wit each of my girls.

Thank you Father for revealing this to me. Please help me to continue to seek you first, for your ways are perfect!



(written 12/24/10)